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Screamthe anger is exploding inside of my head
this circle of kindness is something to dread
nothing can really soothe my soul
but the feeling inside of me is just like a hole
it may be all the thoughts running through my mind
or sometimes when I feel like I'm emotionally blind
maybe if I leave it alone it will just go away
but then it just comes back the next day
its like I'm tortured with emotion as my life goes on
and its longer than you think from dusk till dawn
I guess you could say i can handle it i know
but why do you care and bother me so
let me live my life so i can enjoy it till I die
then you can say that I cheat and that I lie
but you still don't care about my whole well being
so you continue to hack and slash with out seeing
a life lesson is to be learned but you still don't pay attention
through thick and thin there shouldn't be much tension
but why oh why do I have to wait longer
i guess it will just make my mind grow stronger
this doesn't really have a fairytale end
It's JustJust a push and a shove will set someone on their way
But this method will not work on me today
I'm different and why can't you just understand this
Cause sometimes I think that I cease to exist
I guess you just won't notice my passion for your love
Or your energizing spirit that will lift me above
But if this love is not meant to be true
Then I don't want it artificial or it to fall through
Me forgetting that I yearn for your heart
Feels like torture just waiting to start
I know it just won't happen but I just have to say
That your true love is waiting just at bay
Silver Lined DreamsJust to be with her is all that I want
But being best friends with her is just a taunt
Her in my arms is really just a dream
But it feels just as real then what it may seem
Although many dreams do come true
This one has just fell through
Because this is just a fantasy
There's not more that the eye can see
Having her could change my soul
But I guess I just can't control
She doesn't realize how much I love her
I guess that shows how close are hearts were
The first time I met you, you took my breath away
Because you terrified me getting up in my face
You leaned over me as I sat at the computer
And I thought maybe I could learn to like this place
It was my first speech and debate tournament
And at some point we just started talking
Between the arguments that challenge me
The occasional niceties, and the constant mocking
We had been having a simple conversation though
Maybe an argument would be a more correct term
And at some point you mentioned your girlfriend
And for some reason the thought made me squirm
I admitted it to my best friend, not to you of course
I may have accepted it but I cannot tell you
Because while I've been feeling all these firsts
I'm not sure you've been feeling them too
I Can't Tell HimIt's really not as easy
As you would make it sound
Easy enough as it is to fall
Easy until I hit the ground
If I told him how I feel
And he rejected me with no
It would just about kill me
It would be a horrible new low
Yes, I feel like I'm drowning
In these sad feelings of mine
And you've had to listen to me
As I sit here brokenly and whine
Telling him has too many maybe's
However hard it hurts my heart
I always fall for the wrong people
My choices in love are never smart
The KeyFor not so long had we acquainted yet,
A small excitement I had felt within.
This boy was languished for, though we’d just met.
But his guitar had truly purged my sin.
We spoke of only music heard too rare.
Like standing deep amidst much fragrant jasmine.
I looked and saw notes rising through the air.
Knowing someone like him made me grin.
Was he the one who would unlock my heart?
The key to which was lost in Time’s broad maze?
I prayed we would not ever have to part.
To stargaze deep into the night, amazed.
The sound his voice unleashed had soothed my soul.
Hushed, smitten like looking through a keyhole.
13 March 2013
DaysI don't really know what I'm trying to do
But then I just realize I'm falling for you
I'm tired of all these protocols
Just to be with you is it all
The time ticks by with no time to wait
Having you may be more than just fate
You don't notice the unorthodox style
But once you fall I'll be there for a while
You said it's probably not a guarantee
But you don't know how much that really meant to me
We finally then went our separate ways
Untill I see you, I'll be counting the days
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